Stressed Ramblings

My family and friends know I have been trying to make this decision about single motherhood. Its amazing how deafening the silence can be sometimes when you tell people. It's not unsupportive, but many times you can see or hear that they are questioning your sanity.

I talked to my brother about it yesterday. He was very supportive and asked me questions that had answers to. Then he threw in the money question - 'Can you afford it?'. And yes, I think I can. I'm stressed about the expense of adoption or IUI, etc. But unless I can find a friend to 'knock me up' as my gynecologist suggested when I started this a year ago, I don't think I have a choice. (Amazingly, a friend has offered his services, but I'm not sure he's thought through all the consequences...but its nice to possibly have that option too.)

So back to my stress about the money, is it irresponsible to put myself in debt to try to get pregnant? I have the money to raise a child, but it scares me to put out all the money for something that is not a sure thing. Adoption is expensive and more of a sure thing, but maybe that is the last resort...