He's Here!

He's actually been here for 4 weeks and absolutely love him. Except for being extremely tired and never seeming to stop, my pregnancy was wonderful. I apologize (again) for being a bad blogger. I promise to try to do better.

My OB allowed me to go 41 weeks 1 day till finally giving me a c-section. It was not the natural birth I dreamed of, but I also had decided I preferred the c-section to induction - I was told I had an 80% chance of ending up with c-section, so decided to just do it. It was not nearly as bad as I thought. My mom was with me and was able to cut the cord. My doula had given me tips on staying connected through the procedure and it really was the most incredible moment hearing him cry and seeing him for the first time. He was over 9lbs and 21 inches, with a beautiful head of hair. He truly is a miracle and I love him so much.

My mom stayed with us till just a few days ago. I sobbed the day she left because she lives so far away and I feel bad that she will be missing this time with her grandson. I was so upset, I have considered moving back east - but really it doesn't make sense professionally or financially. We'll see how I feel when I go home for about 3 weeks at xmas.

I have had 3 bad crying fits since he was born. I didn't cry this much while pregnant. The first was the day I found out the pediatrician I loved no longer accepted my HMO. I have since found the 2nd best pediatrician and am in deep like with him. The second was the day my son was circumcised. My mom was in the room with him, where he slept - while I sobbed in the waiting room. (Damn hormones!). The 3rd was when my mom left.

We've had 4 days alone now and so far so good. I start working from home on Monday. We'll see how that works. I kind of wish I had longer, but at the same time I'm kind of bored. N is sleeping a long stretch in the night, so I'm not feeling the need to nap much during the day when he is sleeping. We'll see. For now, I'm just enjoying every moment of being a mom to my precious little guy.

Quick Update

Sorry blogworld that I have been out of touch. Here is a quick update and I promise to write more by the end of the week.

I'm 30wk 2days and am expecting my baby boy July 9th. All is going well with the pegnancy. I've just been super busy and tired.

I'll write more this week. :)

Week 8

Finally I am feeling better. A little nausea, but much better. The nurse told me it will probably start up again in the next 2 weeks till the end of the 1st trimester. My ultrasound appointment was moved up to today because of the doctor's schedule and I was so happy to go early. All looks good. Healthy heartbeat and growth. The second sac has not progressed, so it is officially a singleton pregnancy. I'm ok with it. My next appointment is in 2 weeks, followed by my first appointment with my obstetrician on January 4th.

I also decided to travel home for xmas. I was taking the high cost for the flight as a sign to not go, but it dropped quite a bit this morning after my appointment so I booked it. My mom is ecstatic.

All Day Sickness...

I had my first ultrasound a week and a half ago. It was bittersweet. There were 2 sacs, but only 1 heartbeat. I am very happy for the 1, but sad about the other. I did some research and found this excellent article http://multiples.about.com/cs/medicalissues/a/vanishingtwin.htm and it made me feel better.

Now I have had nausea and vomiting daily for a few weeks. I also got a migraine last Friday that got ahead of me and will not entirely go away. It is very frustrating. I don't want to take meds, but really don't have a choice. After 4 days, I finally called the doctor to ask for some advice on how to get rid of it. I got a painkiller. I've taken it, but the headache is still there. The nausea is being relieved a little by B6, so it's just bad in the morning. I really need this headache to be gone by Monday.

I hate to be complaining, I am so happy, but it's hard to express when I feel so miserable. Next ultrasound is Wednesday morning - 8 weeks!

Update

Finally heard back...Beta has jumped from around 200 last Thursday to over 800 on Monday! My first ultrasound is scheduled for November 18th. Now...do I want to go alone or bring a friend along? For those who have gone through this, any thoughts?

Patience...

I'm being very impatient right now and I know it...I got my blood drawn yesterday morning at 7:15. They have to send it out because of my insurance, but usually, I get it a call that afternoon or the next morning with an update. It's 2:20 and still no call from the nurse. All I can think is that it's bad news and the dr is waiting to call me... I'm trying to put off calling, but not sure how much longer I can.

Breathe...sigh...be patient...ahhh...that feels better :)

IUI #4 - Make sure you are sitting down...

So...cycle 4 started October 5th... Mom was in town and came for the day 3 ultrasound...My birthday was October 14th which I spent at Disneyland with some great friends. It was nice and relaxing and helped me keep my mind off of the next day - my next date with the turkey baster. For some reason with this cycle, I stopped the 'ifs'. In my head 'I am getting pregnant'. I repeated it constantly.

October 15th, I went in for the procedure. It went well and then I had the rest of the week off from work - nice 5 day weekend. I totally relaxed and really didn't think about it too much. This cycle I did not have the sore boobs that I did the last two times. I think its because my insurance stopped covering the crinone and I switched to a progesterone compound made at the pharmacy. Day 9 I had a low grade fever and was feeling really nauseous (which has happened at least for 1 day every cycle). I didn't think anything of it. The next day I was walking the dogs on this trail behind a bread factory and could smell this horrible trash smell - as I got closer to the bread factory, I realized I was smelling the bread. I usually loved this smell and it was disgusting. I began to think...maybe it took this time... 2 days later (12 dp) I cheated and took a test. Yes! there was a light but distinct blue line. Of course I followed this with another the next day - and the line was still there - just darker! Blood test was Thursday and it is confirmed! I am like a fellow blogger and will not say the pr word - I just keep saying it's early - but the test was positive.

I've had a lot of support from friends and family and as much as I want to keep this quiet till January, I have been telling anyone who asks on the status the results. I am very happy - but also cautiously optimistic. I know anything can happen right now. I went to church yesterday - the first time in years that hasn't been for a wedding or funeral - and didn't get struck down by lightning as I entered :) I'm feeling lots of stuff going on in my belly and have been pretty nauseous - it's early so I wonder if its just in my head. Next steps are another blood test tomorrow and then an ultrasound in 2 weeks.

It's so exciting, yet scary at the same time!