He's Here!

He's actually been here for 4 weeks and absolutely love him. Except for being extremely tired and never seeming to stop, my pregnancy was wonderful. I apologize (again) for being a bad blogger. I promise to try to do better.

My OB allowed me to go 41 weeks 1 day till finally giving me a c-section. It was not the natural birth I dreamed of, but I also had decided I preferred the c-section to induction - I was told I had an 80% chance of ending up with c-section, so decided to just do it. It was not nearly as bad as I thought. My mom was with me and was able to cut the cord. My doula had given me tips on staying connected through the procedure and it really was the most incredible moment hearing him cry and seeing him for the first time. He was over 9lbs and 21 inches, with a beautiful head of hair. He truly is a miracle and I love him so much.

My mom stayed with us till just a few days ago. I sobbed the day she left because she lives so far away and I feel bad that she will be missing this time with her grandson. I was so upset, I have considered moving back east - but really it doesn't make sense professionally or financially. We'll see how I feel when I go home for about 3 weeks at xmas.

I have had 3 bad crying fits since he was born. I didn't cry this much while pregnant. The first was the day I found out the pediatrician I loved no longer accepted my HMO. I have since found the 2nd best pediatrician and am in deep like with him. The second was the day my son was circumcised. My mom was in the room with him, where he slept - while I sobbed in the waiting room. (Damn hormones!). The 3rd was when my mom left.

We've had 4 days alone now and so far so good. I start working from home on Monday. We'll see how that works. I kind of wish I had longer, but at the same time I'm kind of bored. N is sleeping a long stretch in the night, so I'm not feeling the need to nap much during the day when he is sleeping. We'll see. For now, I'm just enjoying every moment of being a mom to my precious little guy.